"So the lion fell in love with the lamb....."

Exactly how much ignorance goes into hate? stupidity? jealousy? rage? we all experience these emotions at one time or another in our lives, there are those of us that are unlucky enough to experience more than one at a time. No matter what we are feeling, we shouldn't be ignorant to the fact that our actions are like ripples in a pond. sooner or later they are going to affect someone else, if not immediately. i plan on trying very hard to find other ways to relieve stress in 2009. I have realized that it is unhealthy to harbor all of these emotions without a means to vent them. not only unhealthy for me, but for my kids as well. just this morning dj and randy were fighting over brody (a green monster from some crazy show called "yo gabba gabba") i told randy to drop it and go find a ball to trade off with him (dj is overly fascinated with balls) instead he picks up his remote to his toy car and throws it at dj's head. so, one band-aid, one time out, a snack and then naptime later the reality hit me of what happened. my biggest flaw really is the fact that when i get angry, i throw things. sure i pass it off as a joke, but if the small appliances in my house had thought bubbles, when i got mad, thier bubble would be something like "holy shit! don't pick me, don't pick me!" or "crap, the bald one just put me back together!" true, i have to be REALLY angry to throw something, and most of the time, that anger is directed towards my ex. (and he truly deserves every crack in the head that i give him) but that doesnt change the fact that it has made an impact on the little ones. ive noticed lately around here at mindsay that there are a few ignorant ones among us. and though it is thier right to opinion and expressing themselves. I strongly dislike the ripples that are screwing with my pond. and that of my closest friends. people talk about leaving mindsay because its not what it used to be and the jerks are taking over or at least making many people miserable. but i thought that we had administrators that kept stuff like that from happening. what is the point of moderators if they dont do anything about it? or does it have to get really bad in order to be noticed?   oy! maybe im not making any sense and this post has gone in a completly different direction than i intended so with that i think i will go start dinner.