well, as i sit here and look thru everyone elses blogs to see how their life is unfolding, and it leaves me pondering mine. a couple of weeks ago, at the advice of two very good friends, i actually proposed to my friend and of course he accepted seeing that we are expecting a new baby in january. i havent really shared this with anyone because its a rather odd time for me. i said that after my first screw up of a marriage, that i would never venture down that road again. so........ here i am, engaged. pregnant. and im actually happy.

maybe the only sad part in this all, is that my mom is not here to share in my happiness, she was such a large part of my life and even after these years have passed, it still feels like the day that i lost her. well, this didnt quite go where i intended it to, at any rate, im sure i will post more later. as for now, im off to the beach to find some more shells